Monday, May 26, 2014


Some people just care less about other people's feelings. It kinda hurts deep inside. It always does. Constantly. However hard I tried to convince myself that today is gonna be a new day, there goes that selfish person who'd ruin it all for me.

I've improved myself emotionally, but that person really hasn't been doing any positive change.
And it hurts me a lot more knowing that this is how it's gonna be my whole entire life. Having to put up with this, can't run, can't hide and can't solve it either.

I got over everything else in life except this one. Cutting at the same wound over and over again. I've had enough of this. But what can I do?

However, I do believe in God. This is a test. Small but constant.
Jika ini ujian-Mu Ya Allah, aku redha.

Allahuakbar. Astaghfirullah. Alhamdulillah. Subhanallah.


It has been a busy week for me and right now I'm free.

I went back to my hometown because my grandfather had a surgery the other day. Unfortunately, I only get to stay for a day because I have interviews scheduled for the weekend. I felt a little bit sad not being able to help out my grandmother at the hospital when she needed it most.

Last Saturday was the day of my Uitm interview. So as soon as the registration counter opened, I lined up and register. I was the first person to be interviewed. The interviewers were really nice and friendly. Alhamdulillah, it ended pretty fast and I get to go home early.

And the next day, which was Sunday, which was yesterday, I had another interview in UM. I registered and waited for my turn. I was 4th out of 13 candidates in my panel. While I waited for my turn, my heart was pumping really fast. It was nerve-wrecking. I'll spare the details but I did my best and hopefully it'll turn out good. I really want this. And I hope they see that in me.
My passion, the fire in my eyes.

InsyaAllah, Amin.
Good night!

P/s I need a getaway. School holidays' coming real soon :)

Monday, May 19, 2014

Everything but cliche

One of my favorite quote. Practical and relevant to every aspect in life; education, career, sports, workout, cooking, cleaning and well, basically everything in general.

A brilliant approach in motivating people.

So the next time you feel like giving up halfway, go ahead, just don't regret it later.

Good night and sweet dreams readers.


Cleaning spree!

I named last week as "THE SPRING CLEANING WEEK".

Although we don't have 4 seasons in Malaysia, I have dedicated last week to cleaning, re-organizing and redecorating my dear bedroom. I took down the old wall decor and made my own brand new mini-blog in front of my study table. In which ironically, is exactly where I'm updating my blog right now. Hmmmm.


I attached a couple of strings and hung my short term goals, daily quotes, to-do list and photos with some cute clips that I got as a gift from my aunt :) Thanks Mak Long (Y)

I also (finally) decided to organize my closet which includes throwing away old unwearable clothes, hanging my formal clothes and arranging them accordingly and also gathering up clothes to give away to charity.
I've been wanting to do it a long time ago but I guess I got a little bit carried away somehow. So what motivated me to finally organize my wardrobe are these 3 "events":

1. Had a chat with my cousin, Ieka. And she told me she was cleaning up her wardrobe.
2. I opened the topmost closet door and a bag of baju kurung almost hit my head. (Managed to save it though, jyeah!)
3. I stumbled upon a quote on the net which goes like this, "Yesterday you said tomorrow." Deep.

Hahaha so tu je lah basically. Apart from the usual Sunday morning tutoring (last class) and workout sesh at home, oh wait have I told you guys I quit gym class? I bought my own dumbbells and I wanted to workout on specific parts of my body, so I searched for some great workout tutorial online and simply have my workouts at home, daily! Plus nowadays, the weather had been very unpredictable so I don't wanna risk.

Soooo that was last week's activities.

Saturday, May 10, 2014

The "Have You Evers" Survey!

I am extremely bored. Decided to answer a survey of 35 selected questions from a random website.

1. Slept?
Yes, of course.
 2. Taken a shower with the opposite sex?
Not that I can remember.
3. Gone over the speed limit?
Yes, like everybody else.
4. Painted your room?
5. Drove a car?
6. Stole money from a friend?
7. Been arrested?
 8. Had a crush on your neighbor?
Yeah, around 10 years ago.
9. Been on a plane?
Yes. First time when I was 10 years old and latest this year.
10. Made a snow angel?
I wish.
11. Been lonely?
Yeah sometimes.
12. Fallen asleep at work/school
Like duh, of course :p
13. Been to a club?
Kinda, minus the alcohol and 'clubbing'. Attended my classmate's birthday party.
14. Been suspended from school?
15. Been in a car?
Really? Yes.
16. Hated the way you look?
Insecure, yeah all the time. But I'm thankful for how I look. God's creations are flawless.
17. Felt like dying from embarrassment?
HAHAHA... let's not talk about it.
18. Cried yourself to sleep?
 19. Sang karaoke?
Tbh, never.

 20. Had a dream that you married someone?
Yes, a celebrity as a matter of fact. Keep dreaming, dear self.
21. Sat on a roof top? 
Yeah once.
22. Didn't take a shower for a week?
Gross, never will.
23. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Almost, managed to escape.
24. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger?
 No. Because I'm not.
25. Laugh so hard you cry?
Loads of times :D
26. Cheated on a test?
27. Forgotten someone's name?
Very often. Never on purpose though.
28. Played a prank on someone?
Yes. That prank on Kamal is my all-time favorite still! :D
29. Gone to a late night movie?
Only with my brother.

 30. Thought about running away?
31. Ran away?
32. Made parents cry?
Tears of joy once.
33. Own an instrument?
2 in fact, a keyboard and a drumset.
34. Been in a band? 
Yes. 5 bands actually.
35. Shot a gun?
Yes, an M16. During PLKN.

Monday, May 5, 2014

5 Sundays

Every Sunday since 3 weeks ago, I've been holding Econs tuition class as requested by my Pre-U juniors. With only 2 Sundays remaining before their 2nd Sem exam begins, they've been attending my class every week. So kudos! Keep up the effort guys!

Alongside of this new "activity" of mine, I was also invited by SMK SSAAS to give a talk during Pre-U Orientation Day this week. So new juniors will come in to join our Form 6 family, so as super seniors, our beloved teacher requested the 10 of "us" to hold some motivational activities for the current seniors and newcomers in school.

We've planned a few light activities because speech and just talking is sooooo boring, even we ourselves hate it. Hahaha :P so far so good, we've got all the super seniors to cooperate. I'll let you know how it goes later on :D Hoping for everything to go well according to plan. Aminn.

The "us" I was referring to (plus Ali and Halim)

From left: Lily, Anura, Mora, Ben, Medi, Intan, Elvi, Kana.

Alright then, adios!


Conversation between myself and a Malaysian uncle that I've just met outside of a shop in Bandung, Indonesia.

Uncle: So, datang sini honeymoon ke?
Me: Kahwin pun belum pak cik. Hahaha.

Buat lawak pulak pak cik ni.

If I was on a honeymoon, why on earth would my "husband" leave me alone outside a kedai kain?